In case you cannot tell, I am really stuck on Jimmy Eat World Lately.
I lost touch with this record a few months ago, I remembered how much I loved it, and finally downloaded another copy of it. It means a lot to me in so many ways. It’s one of the only records that I will listen to the words and think they speak to me, feel like they apply to my life in the most direct way.
But hell, give one thought and its obvious that X-thousand other kids think the exact same thing.
At least its a positive message I guess. It could be sublime. Ha.
I tried to write tonight. Of course, there is shit keeping me from it. (Read My other blog for info, Yes, this is basically an easter hunt through my shit).
I don’t even know what I feel anymore. I try as hard as I can to just ignore the things that bring me down. I miss being numb, completely and utterly numb. But then, of course, when I was numb I wished I could feel.
Now I have the worst of both worlds. The things I don’t want to affect (effect?) me do, and the things I want to feel for, I can’t.
I almost feel like I am a robot that was created in the image of man, only my creator fucked up the wiring. hahaha.
Like seriously. What the fuck am I going to do with me?
Just, give me something to work with at least?