Whats the Point?

19/11/2008

This is bad.

I’ve gotten to a point where, well, where I just scream at everyone. I’m angrier than ever, and I don’t even feel bad about it.

I’m pushing everyone away and I don’t regret it.

I don’t want to be here. Though I’m not even sure where “here” is.

Is it where I physically am? is it the point I’ve come to in my life?

I don’t know.

I do know that I am tired, my back is getting worse, and I just want to go to sleep.

I’m not even motivated to play x-box anymore. The thing that had been my scape from everything in my life isn’t even doing its job.

I find myself constantly questioning everything. Do I like my job, my friends, my music, my life? Do I like living in Guelph? Do I like my car, my clothes, my attitude?

Is the way i see the world, the way I want to see the world?

Do I do this for attention, or because I have nobody else to talk to?
If I did have someone, would I even talk to them?

Ugh, this really stinks.

I don’t know how to handle most anything anymore.

I’m unstable. So unstable.

I need an outlet.

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