I am human and I need to be loved.

01/11/2009

I am in a pretty bleh mood tonight. Maybe a little lonely? I don’t know, I am not going to whine about it though. Most people wouldn’t know, but I have sort of had a change, one on the inside. I sort of see things different, and if I don’t see it different, I feel different about it.

I don’t know, I think I need to get out more.
This weekend, I tried something new for me, I took one of my half brain schemes and actually brought it to fruition. I took a chance, and it paid off for me. It is an odd feeling. It almost makes me feel like there are other things I am missing out on because I won’t put in the work to make it happen.
This is usually because I feel like I will fail at it, because that is the way history has repeated for me. Failure, after failure, after failure.
I sort of missed the point of it all I suppose. I let the fact that something might not work keep me from ever knowing if it will. I don’t know if this means that I will be taking chances on everything, or if it just means that I will keep a more open mind to things.
I bought a sketchbook and pencils today. I never thought I would ever take the art thing serious. I really only thought that I bought the tattoo machine as a joke to give me and my friends funny tattoos. I don’t know where I am headed with it, but I do know I enjoy doing it.
At least if I fail at that, there will be a permanent record of how funny a failure it was. Well, I mean, Wikipedia has one of those for my last failure, but this one I am heading into with a light hearted outlook.
I don’t really think I have much more to talk about. I am in the process of setting up a wordpress and transferring my blog over there, why you may ask? Well, I am extending the blog into an entire website, and it would be much easier to do that over there.
Slumber is calling.

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