Antisocial Networking

10/11/2010

It has been about 6 months since I deactivated my Facebook. It still seems kind of weird, seeing how I used to basically live on it. Something I never mentioned when I deactivated it was that I also went through my phone contacts and text messages and deleted everyone I deemed unimportant. It was something unlike anything I have done before, it was always one or the other, but I would never get rid of both. If I was spending more time offline and away from the internet, I was probably spending that time texting people.

Sitting here, thinking about it, 6 months is a long time. As long a time as it is, I can’t help but sit and look around at my life (and even my apartment) and focus on the fact that nothing has changed. My bookcase is still sitting in the exact same spot, just as I am the same neurotic emotive as I’ve always been.

I mean, I suppose I can say I have learned the gift of self-restraint, in some capacities. I’ve kept from re-activating the facebook this long, even when I get the urge to get in touch with someone. I have attempted alternative means to do this when I do, unfortunately, it seems like Facebook seems like the only way a lot of people allow themselves to be easily contacted. And so, for better or worse, there are some people I have wanted to speak to that I haven’t been able to. A friend suggested that I create a profile with the sole means of using it to send those messages to people, but that doesn’t sit totally right with me.

I will sometimes get the urge to sign back in, if even just because I am bored or something. I don’t know why I seem to completely objective to it. I think it might be because it’s a breeding ground for my negative personality traits. I don’t like seeming egotistical or pretentious, it is very much the exact opposite of how I actually feel. Yet, I remember constantly acting to the contrary. I like to think I haven’t been so much since, though that could be because I haven’t any real means to talk to people. Another problem with putting my Facebook on blackout, it seems.

It remains to be seen as to whether I will hold out on reconnecting my profile or not. It is definitely a mixed bag, and I don’t know if I want to be this isolated anymore.

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Courtney January 26, 2011 at 2:56 am

Hey, remember me? Your favorite Kansan. :) I randomly thought of you the other day and wondered how you’ve been, but was a little sad when I remembered you had deactivated your facebook and I no longer had your number. But I also remembered you had this website, so I’m glad I found it again. I don’t know the point of this comment. I liked your Usher cover though. And I miss talking to you every so often. And I really hope all is well with you. :)

Kyle Campbell February 8, 2011 at 6:43 pm

I feel the exact same way man. But congrats on the self-restraint. Facebook is proven to be an actual addiction and staying away from it can be pretty difficult.

Ernie February 8, 2011 at 6:57 pm

Hey to both of you, I am always available through email :)

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